After 10 years of marriage and mothering a 7 year old son, the only thing that is in my mind nowadays is to be back in shape! No, it does not mean that I have no shape now. I have one... a very much loved one by my son. He finds immense pleasure in jumping into my lap, which acts as a cushion for him. He loves to pinch (not hard) my oversized arms saying 'Mamma, so soft'. I, the always wanting to go back to shape I, find solace in his words.
So what went wrong, when did this craving for going slim creep into my mind? Well, after being super thin all my life, my world changed when Ishan came to my life. No it is not baby weight, I shed that immediately after his birth. This is weight which I gained because I could not stop eating for two people, way after he was born!! Yes, you heard it right. The pregnancy hunger pangs never left me. Now I am consciously trying to put an end to that craving, sending a strong message to my body - "enough, there is no kid inside and you don't need that much food!"
People who kept on saying "don't you get food" all my growing up years, changed their dialogue - 'you gained so much weight'. I don't know if the problem is with them or me. I mean these are the same people who had issues with my 'NO Weight' state....and now when I have gained some instead of appreciating they are complaining again!! Yeah I know, I did not gain weight to make them happy, but when they have a chance to be happy why they are not??
I have no major concern about my weight gain, more so when I am not having any problem in my day to day life. But then people.....these people......why don't they let my past be past and accept me as I am.
Well guys, I am the same person you knew always...... yes with extra weight but still the same. Please let my past rest in peace!!
So what went wrong, when did this craving for going slim creep into my mind? Well, after being super thin all my life, my world changed when Ishan came to my life. No it is not baby weight, I shed that immediately after his birth. This is weight which I gained because I could not stop eating for two people, way after he was born!! Yes, you heard it right. The pregnancy hunger pangs never left me. Now I am consciously trying to put an end to that craving, sending a strong message to my body - "enough, there is no kid inside and you don't need that much food!"
People who kept on saying "don't you get food" all my growing up years, changed their dialogue - 'you gained so much weight'. I don't know if the problem is with them or me. I mean these are the same people who had issues with my 'NO Weight' state....and now when I have gained some instead of appreciating they are complaining again!! Yeah I know, I did not gain weight to make them happy, but when they have a chance to be happy why they are not??
I have no major concern about my weight gain, more so when I am not having any problem in my day to day life. But then people.....these people......why don't they let my past be past and accept me as I am.
Well guys, I am the same person you knew always...... yes with extra weight but still the same. Please let my past rest in peace!!
hahahah! Too good! You have company as far as the 'thin past' and 'not-so-thin present' is concerned :p. Btw, a very well written humorous blog. Please keep writing :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on ur adventure. I am glad to be able to share ur journey with u. Its well written and well articulated. U have chosen an apt topic to kick off too. World over women are plagued by weight issues. It's either "oh u are so slim" (the jealous types) or "oh r u eating for the whole paadaposhi" (the derisive types) comments we Gift each other. A person is beautiful by the force of their nature not their weight. We don't know what Waheeda Rehman or Asha Parekh weighed. Nor were Liz Taylor or Marilyn Monroe slim. Yet they were world icons. These days though it is hard to distinguish one reed from another.
ReplyDeleteCongrats also on having such a strong mind to not care about the worlds opinions. U look great just the way u are. And of course no one can beat u in the smile department.
I was not aware that you write so well... This blog of your gave me a bit more chance to know u as a person so thanks for that first. As per your topic I have always been a person who weighed more than anyone else in school, college, workplace... To be honest it did bother me but something sweet happened to me also... At one time I was living in a place where I interacted with people for whom weight/race/skin color was a lot more fashionable to care for... they were fighting for their existence and their mind... they were mentally challenged and convicted people out for rehab... that time my thought process changed... then I realized we are always too clogged up with our own down syndrome so we get a feel good factor when we brood on someones misery and that brooding is as per the so called society... Wonder what is society isn't it you and me... after a certain time I gave up on that and thought life it too short so better to keep it simple... So do and live exactly the way you want and don't care for the society... they don't cook or earn or bathe for you...
ReplyDeleteSheesh sanhi, I can't even blame the kid. I lost all my pregnancy weight. I gained weight when I went to US and discovered the joy of fast food. One year is all it look and I have never been able to shed despite all the gymming. Hope u succeed in doing what I couldn't. Fyi u haven't lost ur shape entirely.
ReplyDeleteGood one San... :) If you do not care, do not even waste your time writing about it...we love you the way you are...:) A strong and independent woman. :D
ReplyDelete@ Swagata, loved your comment! Agreed to each and every word you said.
Superbly written.. just today i realised you have started writing again :P will look fwd to reading your many many blogs :P love you mom!
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